We all have bad periods, but...

5:06:00 PM




Hello. How are you? It's 1 AM as I'm writing this so if this post gets all over the place and is messy and all that jazz, I'm sorry. I really wanted to write this out, because I feel like writing out my emotions has kept me sane *as much as i can be ofc* so many fucking times..



I really don't know how to start this post but.. Here goes nothing.


This period, I have been very irritable, fucked up, anxious, in a word , or two, not good. And, since I consider myself a pretty strong, happy person, that hasn't been way too easy to handle. But, I've been thinking. I need to stop forcing myself to always be the happy , smiling person that never gets sad or worried or whatever. No. I'm not one of those creepy people that are always smiling, that are always seemingly happy. I'm just like yin and yang. In my bright side, there's darkness, in my dark side, there's light. What doesn't ever change , no matter how shitty I'm feeling, no matter how disappointed i am, is who I am. My bad mood and dark thoughts aren't gonna shift me into a bad person. 


They won't make me unhappy.I mean they will, but won't make me a negative person.. I believe that, in order to be satisfied with the good, sometimes we have to face the bad. I'm trying not to make this too personal but I need the future me to read this and see how far she's come. I have distanced. First and foremost, from myself, and second from the people I hold dear to heart, third from the things I oh so enjoy(ed)... I am just like.. Not intact with reality, I'm really anxious as to what's gonna happen with my life.. I understand , I need to let go , I need to stop worrying, but I want to be in control of my life.


 I want to have everything I'm striving for, I want to figure out what is it that's my purpose on this earth, I really want to enjoy everything. I am enjoying it. I want to have something that will make me feel passion, love. I have my loved ones to love, I have myself to love, all that makes this feeling of passion in me, makes my blood boil, makes me satisfied I'm here. A few things that do that for me - writing , music , peaceful environment , meditation, working out, change, being present in the moment, beautiful pictures, making this time on the earth worth it. 


It's been a shitty period, but I'm more than just this period. I'm happy. I'm at peace. I'm breathing now. I'm human. I see light in every darkness, good in everything bad. And I'm here to fulfill a purpose, fulfill maybe more purposes? As of now, I'll accept my bad & good periods, and just like I have with everything, learn something from every situation that I get into. I'm a very positive person, I have ambitions, I am really determined to get everything I want and I will. I'll get even more out of my comfort zone. I'll give myself the time & attention I need, and just like everything else, that will make me grow. I'll cherish and nourish myself. No more lies. No more hiding from myself. No more falling back into toxic mindsets. I am here, and I'm going to make my time worth it.


And most importantly, I need to not get life too seriously, and just enjoy. And always remember that good times pass, but so do the bad ones. Nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain, eh?

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35 comments

  1. Just keep your mind clean. Be close to positive people. :)
    Kisses

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  4. Amazing post, and I agree with the sentence "Nothing lasts forever", I try to remind that to myself when I have a bad period.
    xx

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    1. It's also a part of one of my favorite songs, November rain. I remind myself that all the time :)

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  5. Thanks a lot :D

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  8. What a great collection of quotes, they were useful to read on a Monday!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
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  9. Even majority of times im a very happy person as well i get what you mean,
    we all have those periods of time where we are not feeling as happy as we would like to
    but hey, that doesn't mean you can't get to be super happy again!
    kisses!

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  10. Adorei o Post.
    beijos boa semana
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  11. This is written so well and I totally agree with you, nothing lasts forever therefore let's enjoy each moment.

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  12. Nice post.
    Love the inspiring quotes.

    Ann
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  13. This post is exactly what I need right now. Such inspiring words
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  15. I totally agree with you. <3 Beautiful post!
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  16. Great post, dear! Looks interesting :)
    Hugs ♥

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